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Wednesday, 1 January 2020

Why I'm Glad To See The Back Of 2019!


Well, 2019 has been and gone and what a year it has been. To be quite honest I am glad to see the back if it.

Here's why............


2019 in a firework type font


I always feel positive entering into a New Year and with 2019 being so exhausting in various ways I'm glad it's come to an end.

It's been a bit crap for a number of reasons and I'm not talking about the two broken washing machines that I whinged about on Instagram!!

During late January I started to have issues with my stomach. Starting with cramping and then getting to the point I would be doubled over in pain it took months before I got a diagnosed with a stomach ulcer. That didn't come as too much of a surprise to me. I'd suffered with one in my late teens but the pain was now much worse and the acidity was so bad that it was having an effect on the rest of the body.

But the tests and scans also found something else. There was a mass on one of my kidneys and it's size, position and how it appeared on the scan brought various cancer markers with it. I was fast-tracked for further tests and our lives were put on hold. It had a big effected on all of us and the worry was unreal. I was incredible lucky that further tests revealed that it wasn't the big c.

All of this happened at an already difficult time. A time where a close relative that we cared for had to go into a care home after years of us looking after him. A time that our son, JJ, struggled with things like phonics and spellings, and got upset when he compared himself to others, as did I. A time when everything seemed to break or need repair. A time when with all the stress my Fibromyalgia worsened and my husband would regularly have to help me more. It reached a point that we both began to worry about my mental health.

Then I had a horrific fall at home, bruised my ribs and broke my coccyx. I couldn't get up from the floor, and was on my own with JJ. At one point the hospital suspected I had a various breaks to my back and a spinal surgeon was called to check me over and look at the massive bruise on my arse!!!

Those difficult times though shit, were a big turning point. A few things about who and what was important were realised. A friend of mine says every cloud has a silver lining and when times are a bit crap you have to look for the positives. 

Over 2019 we also made some great memories away in our trusty old caravan, With a lot of hard work and reassurance, JJ got to grips with his phonics and spellings, and he's doing really well in his new class. We've also started to have a good clear out and declutter, which is definitely good for the mind and soul!! Oh and the bruise on my backside has finally gone!!

So, thanks for the lessons 2019 but its time to shift out the way and make room for 2020!!

Mummy Snowy Owl
xx


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